So sometimes things just come along and you aren’t really sure what they are supposed to teach you. A moment or an event that makes you say ask why. Why did it happen? Why would someone do that? Why would someone say that? Your head gets filled with questions and emotions; anger, sadness, guilt. I had one of those events last week. My mom got hit by a car while she and I were walking and the driver just kept going. They loaded my mom into an ambulance and I wasn’t even allowed to go with her because of the craziness that is happening around us. I can honestly tell you I have never been more scared in my life.

I got lucky. My mom is bruised and has a broken bone but I still have her with me. Waiting to hear from her when she was in hospital was honestly the longest and worst wait ever. My mom is my best friend, my biggest supporter, my helper, and so many more things. To me my mom has always seemed invincible. I have watched her kick ass in a male dominated field. I have watched her conquer fears and scary situations. I have watched her do whatever it takes to save other people. I have watched her adopt and care for so may of my friends. I have watched her literally give her all to someone in need. To me she can do literally anything.  Having to deal with this has been a new type of challenge for me. (PS she is probably going to kill me for this post).

I spent the first couple of days asking myself those questions over and over again. How could happen? Why would someone do that? Why couldn’t I stop it? I felt anger and guilt and fear. Like all my other life changing moments, my mom helped me change my mindset. She has been so amazingly strong and positive throughout this whole ordeal. The first thing she asked when she called me from the hospital was if I was okay. Here I am perfectly fine while she’s in the ER and that was her first question. She even apologized for scaring me. She gets hurt and she’s apologizing to me. That is just the kind of amazing person that she is. Here we are 5 days later and the only complaint she has is that she can’t do more. She has taken this amazingly scary and horrible situation and retained an amazing spirit and attitude.

I’ve honestly learned so much in the past 5 days. I feel like I am recommitting myself to the journey. All this uncertainty lately has made it hard to stay committed to the journey that I was on. My mom’s attitude has provided a new type of motivation for me. I have this one life and I need to make the most of it and that means being 100% all the time in this. Life is short. You never get to redo the day you are living and it is important to live it the best way possible.

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Today I am incredibly grateful that I get to sit in the living room and annoy my mom. I am grateful that I get to laugh with her and share stupid videos and photos. I am grateful that I have her here to nag me and annoy me. I am grateful that I get to keep sharing incredible days with her and make more memories.  I am going to start acting like her and adopting her mentality. Its never good enough until you absolutely can’t do anything more.